PIcture thought day 45 – ‘my life was an open wound that wouldn’t heal’

     I yell out to my God, I yell with all my might,
    I yell at the top of my lungs. He listens.

DSCF14682-6 I found myself in trouble and went looking for my Lord;
my life was an open wound that wouldn’t heal.
When friends said, “Everything will turn out all right,”
I didn’t believe a word they said.
I remember God—and shake my head.
I bow my head—then wring my hands.
I’m awake all night—not a wink of sleep;
    I can’t even say what’s bothering me.
I go over the days one by one,
    I ponder the years gone by.
I strum my lute all through the night,
    wondering how to get my life together.

Does life feel like this to you, it can often for me. The day just seems so hard, I am in pain and discomfort and wonder why I bother at all. Sometimes life is just hardly worth the effort. Each day is a struggle, some better than others but more struggle than blessing. Yes I can do many things for myself and have family and friends to support me, but that is not the same as just being to go and do something or arrange something and know that you will be able to go. To just pop into town or to the cinema.  There are so many things I just can not do,even just to run in the rain or go for a short walk.

Most days it is hard to just deal with that day, with out trying to do anything extra. Where O God are you?

11-12 Once again I’ll go over what God has done,
    lay out on the table the ancient wonders;
I’ll ponder all the things you’ve accomplished,
    and give a long, loving look at your acts.    Psalm 77

God is there I just need to go back over all His blessings to me, the things of the past but also the things of yesterday, the love and support, the blessings of others as I met them or spent time with them at church, the blessing of doing His work. The wonders of the world around me, giving me life and leading me out of death.

Yes God is there struggling with me through the pain, He knows what pain is he was tortured and killed abandoned and along. He cry’s in my pain and rejoices in my  laughter, yes I laugh. I have fun I enjoy the things I do and God is in that as He is all I do and experience.

Without Him life would be impossible with Him it is manageable.


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